Unintentional sentimentality(21st of March, 2014)

To fulfil her wish, I brought her back to Fish market in the morning. Same as yesterday, nobody can beat that connection we had with each other the entire day. That strong urge of me having so much to tell her, as well as being told by her a lot of happening in her life. She was quite appreciated to have me as a tour guide, an old friend that knows what she needs and how to make her happy. That satisfying face emerged once she got to Fish market this time, with a mixed feeling, she took quite a big deal of photos at every angle she thought it could reflect this iconic landmark in Sydney. We then only ordered a box of sushi box because seafood, especially salmon and lobsters contain massive amount of protein which may affect her result of body check for tomorrow. I exceptionally hate the obnoxious seagull taking my shrimp away once I turned around and took some pictures of the sea. But the family who was sitting a table away from us was even worse, when the whole tray of seafood fell off from the table, everything was flying in the air and being taken by the seagulls coming from every direction. It was too pitiful to watch such a scene at Fish market.

Later she asked me to take her to QVB, a building that we have spent most of our time walking through every luxurious store, toy store etc. Every girl likes little handcrafts. The tiny soldiers' figures and that big model of war is made up of thousands of small components which has attracted both of us to take some time to observe it carefully. Luxurious goods these days have expanded their market to things that we could barely imagine, such as those glittering pens and lego.

We have seen one of the stations of that UTS racing competition. People's balloon poppings to get the clue was one of the tricks they have done there, in order to entertain the audience around them. There was this guy who came and talked to both of us when we were only sitting next to them and chilling for a bit. He quickly made friend with us. During the gap between each group of contestants came, he asked Lin how her trip was, and asked about my studies and all that. Lastly he added my FB before we left. 

I looked at my watch, it was close to 4pm that time. I was asked to bring her back to her hostel. Soon we got there, I was waiting her down there to collect all her baggages. Thinking that was the last deep talk we had during this trip. Everything was chill but my heart was pumping strongly and intensely. She said that she's admired of my tough times, those times that I have been training myself quite well to deal with something that beyond my capability in my age. I said I am more admired of her who can travel somewhere afar alone to experience something new and different. Saying that I have someone here needed me to take care of. I just can't be that selfish to leave her like that. And learning how to live in a foreign country can really harden your heart. Maybe that's why it has turned me into a cold one. But someone does get me, Lin gets me pretty well.

Until her friend came, the one that innocently relied everything on her throughout the whole trip. The water she left on the table this morning was still there, and she was attempted to drink it if we didn't ask her to stop. But I found her friend so cute, she's more of an inexperienced that needs more chances to solve problems herself. 

The most sentimental moment was when I walked with her to the train station, as well as our last talk before she dropped off at international airport. I was holding my tears having my attempt to tell her that she has given me so much fun in these two days if she didn't know. But I didn't want to make it as a sad end, I wish her all happy and cheerful til the last minute. I hugged her the last time, said to her to contact me via wechat, qq or FB whenever she has something to tell me. I will miss her so much and expecting to see her some day...really soon...

I don't ever think anyone would be able to feel me this way, when you have found someone truly understands you, and walks into your heart straightaway in a short period of time, the next minute she's left with all those feelings she has given you unintentionally. Not that she has ever realised how happy I was with her, and how much I cherish these two days...It's so hard to have a soul mate. It's even harder to keep a soul mate...